CALL ME BELOVED

Validation is yours! just a cool $140,
allot yourself 50 minutes per week –
pencil it in between the sobbing fits
        the turning & the
      tossing in cold sheets –
         the dread of the
periphery of your vision blurring out
          are you okay?
familiar territory. Just say your lines.
Tell yourself there is time; hold tight
to anything that grazes your fingers –
   it’s been a tough week, just
   struggling struggling struggling
   struggling struggling struggling
maybe in a past life I was a sailor, why
else can I hold fast to sodden shiplines,
sinking while the storm encircles like a
slate gray ceiling crashing down, down,
        no I’m not sure how
       I can tie that to my dad